Don't Hold On To The Past It Only Holds You Back

The number one thing I think about when starting to lose weight again is that I gave up. I did't reach my goals last time...so what it going to make this time any different. I get scared of where I was and how I did't progress. Or I remember how hard it was to start and I don't want to go through that again. 

 

I didn't realize how much my past was affecting my ability to really try. All my motivation to keep going was overturned with negative emotions or thought from my past, I am letting the fear of my past affect my ability to succeed.

When I started my weightless plan a few days ago I put my goal to run the mile In 30 min. I was scared of trying. I thought it would be to hard. When I told my husband he told me know you can run it 15 min. I laughed, and cried and said no way....there is no way someone like me can run the mile in 15 min. 

So for my work out that morning we timed how long it would take me to run the mile. The whole time we ran this is what I heard....

"You can do this" 

"Keep going" 

"Your almost there" 

"You can do hard things"

Repeated over and over and over again so much that I started thinking it...and repeating it back. At the end of the run I looked down at the timer.

16.29

I RAN THE MILE IN 16 MIN AND 29 SECONDS!!!  

I can do hard things, I can beat my goals, and achieve my dreams.....As soon as I let the past go. 

There is no point holding on to the past when all it does is weakens you! Sure i'm still scared, nervous and not at all where I used to be...but hey that's what my Future is for! :) 

I am so blessed to have such a wonderful husband that supports me, that believe I can do what I might think is the impossible.  Weight loss is hard but that's what makes every pound you lose so rewarding! 

Don't give, allow yourself to over come the things you once thought you couldn't do! 

Until next time....

SPAZout,

            Shay 

Be Still My Soul

Be still, my soul The Lord  is on thy side

With patience bear thy cross of grief or pain

Leave to thy God to order and provide

In ev’ry change he faithful will remain.

Be still, my soul: Thy best thy heav’nly Friend

Thru throny ways leads to a JOYFUL END!

As the tears rolled down my face I find myself look at a photo of what I feel is an ugly, overweight human being. I began to pick at myself and think “Look at those arms they are huge”, “I have chipmunk checks”, “I look so fat” and soon begin to think…. “Who would ever think I am beautiful.”, “How could anyone love this.” “Why on earth would my fiancé want to marry me?”

As I cried for hours this morning I became angry at the fact that I haven’t been working on my goals. It’s so easy to let yourself go but it never seems to be worth it. Lately I have felt anger or resentment towards those who are blessed with the thin genes.  I’m jalousie that they can eat whatever they want and not have to count the calories they have to burn off later or those that find vegetables more appealing than CHOCOLATE!!!!

I am MAD, I am so MAD that I’ve gained back everything I’ve lost plus and additional 10lbs all I could do was cry, and cry, judge my self-image and cry some more. I was scared to tell the people close to me because I want to seem strong and on top of my addiction to food. I don’t like admitting that I have a problem, that I’m human and that I need their help. I want to be independent and strong. Not weak and venerable.

But the truth is I couldn't do it without being 100% honest with the ones close to me. When I told my fiancé I knew he was going to say “Work harder, the things in life you want the most you have to work for….Let’s go running tomorrow.” I felt like I had to prepare myself for this answer because it was honestly the last thing I wanted to hear.  But instead of telling me to work harder, He looked me in the eyes and said “Shay you know you are beautiful, and don’t you think for one second that you’re not.”  HE LOVES ME!!! For ALL of ME! Of course then followed the encouragement of LET’S work on this because the things in life that WE want the most are the hardest things WE have to face.

Notice he never told me I, You. He said Let’s, We. This isn't something God gave me to face alone. He knew that is would be the hardest challenge I would be faced with, He knew I couldn't do it alone so he placed me around people who are stronger in that area of their life than I am. That doesn't me I’m not strong, or not independent. 

One of my top cheer leaders is my mother. No matter what she hasn't given up on me.  She doesn't allow me to sit and wallow in my uncomfortable pity. She picks me back, gives me a hug and tells me to love my self the way I am because so many people around me do and because I am beautiful. 

Again God placed me in Home, with a mother that love me because he knew that at some point (or many points) of my life I wouldn't love what I see staring back in the mirror and at that point I would need the love of my family to tell me to keep moving.

I may not be where I wish I could be right now, but I am grateful for the faith and strength of everyone around me. I am grateful to feel these feelings because that is was cause me to want to change my lifestyle. I may hate it in the moment…..but it sure does make me stronger the next day.

Don’t wait until you've reached your goal to be proud of yourself.

Be proud of every step you take toward reaching that goal.

I am proud and hope you can be proud of yourself.  Yes this is hard and it will be for a while but the hardest things prove to give the best results.

Until next time

SPAZout,

Shay 

The SUPER Food

It remarkable how much one food can boost and change your whole body. With loosing weight I have started introducing more vegetables and fruits into my diet. I became interested why some foods are so good for you and how exactly they help people loses weight.
I started with the SUPER FOOD...known as KALE!

1 Cup of Kale Provides you with

• 3-5g Protein
• 14% of your daily calcium 
• Vitamins 
• K
• D @ 900% 
• A @ 659%
• 2-5g Fiber 
• Protects against various cancers, heart disease and stroke
• Omega Fatty Acids 3 and 6 
• helps with healthy skin and hair
• Regulates blood clotting 
• builds cell remembrance 
• More Iron than in on ounce of beef. ( I am low in Iron because I don't eat a lot of  red meats...Now I have a great replacement) 
• Lowers cholesterol 

Kale is a wonderful food that helps with Weight loss because....

• Low Calories but has a sufficiant bulk to fill you up faster.
• Low calorie -High water content which makes it low energy dense. 
• Contains fiver and protein which is the most important ingredients to weight loss. 

Kale can be cooked in so many different ways, Some of the ways I have cooked it have been.  

• Sauteed with some onions or garlic
• Put it in smoothies- one of my favorite way to eat it!
• Bake it with a little salt and olive oil
• salads 

Kale is a super food. Researching kale helped me see the importance in eating it and I hope it has helped you find a reason to include it into your diet. 

Losing weight me giving up some of your favorite food and replacing it with something better. 

Kale is a great option and it really doesn't taste as bad as people might think. 

Give it a try who knows you might actually really like it...I know your body will appreciate it. 

Until next time,

SPAZout, 

Happiness Is Worth All The Hard Stuff

Achieving my goals one day at a time.

I planed to wake up at 6 a.m. and go running. I kind of slept in tell about 7 but hey I still got up and had a fantastic work out. I am going to critic myself and say that I need to push my self more but that is a good thing. I at least now where I need to improve.

After my workout I went shopping for tons of veggies and fruits! I got home and detoxed my whole apartment got rid of anything that would set me up to fail. After words I planned out my lunch and planned what to have for dinner.
I felt really accomplished that my day has been go so well.
Then I got to work and when I went on lunch I smelled McDonald and it made me crave it so bad. I became jealous and kind of sad. But I didn't let it weigh me down. I ate much lunch and rather enjoyed it. After words I felt so much better. I was so proud that I resisted my temptations and made a small step to a better me! :)
I just had an instant result and so glad that I am making life style changes.

Until next time

SPAZout,
              Shay

What Makes You Lose Weight

Losing Weight has been one of the hardest things I have attempted to do over and over and over....and over again. 

As February approached this year I thought back to when I first started losing weight and how its already been a year. I thought that if I would have stuck to it I could be at my DREAM weight... (if we even have one of those...we all know once we get there we will want to lose more)
I got discouraged and thought why would this time be any different....I obviously don't ever reach my goals. A few day later I thought how wrong I was. I've reached goals, lost pant sizes, created better eating habits....Ya I may not have reached my goal of weighing 150 lb But I've reached goals. I'v accomplished a lot.

Weight loss isn't about reaching your goal and then quieting. You don't just automatically stop once you get to where you want to be. It about the habit's you make and the changes you keep. I'm never going to be perfect. I'll have cheat days to cheat months. But I don't actually quite until I completely stop trying....and I sure as heck haven't stopped trying.
I want to loses weight. I want to lose weight so I can run and play with my kids in the yard (when that day comes) and not be out of breath. I want to lose weight so after going up a flight of stair I don't feel like i'm going to die. I want to lose weight for my family, my fiance and my friends. I want to lose weight for you and for me. I want to lose weight so that I know I can do HARD THINGS!!! and help other people achieve their hard things.
Ya I want it but not just for me. I know that this is going to affect the people around be in more ways than I know or even realize so I feel it would be selfish to say that I am the only reason I am losing weight and that i'm the only one that can make myself lose the weight. THIS IS A LIE!!!! When I don't want to go running because I think its to hard... my fiance shows up at my door dragging me out side and pushes me to run. That make me lose weight. When I really crave that cheese burger and my friend says "No you don't" That makes me lose weight. 
Its hard and sometimes I have to be the one pushing myself in the morning but by having the support of my family, friends and complete strangers that helps me lose weight. Because i'm not alone fighting the hardest battle of my life. I have so many people fighting along my side and when that day come where i'm to weak, I want to cave in and give up...they will be there pulling me along and fighting with me.

"Forget all the reasons why

 it won't work and believe the 

ONE reason why it will."

Weight loss isn't just my own battle to fight and it wont ever be. So i'm not going to give up, I am going to get back on out there and push myself and work hard because this year is going to go by fast and I don't want to look back and wish I would have done something different. Life to short to live that way.

Until next time,

SPAZout,
             Shay

What Does Success Mean To You?

Yesterday I really really really wanted chocolate brownies and ice cream! As the day kept going my craving for french fries and cheeseburger increased. I was constantly talking my self out of getting fast food and washing away my frustrations with chocolate.

At finally deiced that I deserved a serving of brownies and some ice cream. After all I have been working hard, and reaching my goals I deserved a small reward.

 When I got home from work I deiced I would do my workout before indulging in a bowl of ice cream and brownies. At first I kept thinking oh I can't wait to be done, and quickly I forgot about my bowl of ice cream and I didn't crave brownies anymore.

I resisted french fries, cheeseburgers, brownies and ice cream! I DID IT! My desire for losing weight and getting fit became much larger than my desire for chocolate and french fries. (even though I almost gave in)

I know that at the beginning its hard to resist some of our favorite food. You think about it all the time and you crave it like nothing you've ever craved before. But each day those craving are getting weaker and weaker. You can do this!

Don't give up and don't give in to those selfish, self defeating thoughts.


Spazout,
Shay

Instant Results Really Do Exist

We all look back on our lives and wish we would have started what ever it is we wish we had right now! I don't know about you but I like to have instant satisfaction!!! Especially when it comes to weight loss. Everyone tells me weight loss is a process, take baby steps to get to where you want to be and soon you will see results....well I would like to see results now! 

As I thought more about this I began to see results... I am not seeing my weight goal pop up on the scale (that part will come with time and hard work) but I have seen and felt instant results! 

As soon as I decided to lose weight I felt excited... Instant results

I had more energy as I limited my junk intake.... Instant results

I had better self esteem....Instant results 

I see the scale drop day by day....INSTANT RESULTS!!! 

I may not be 100lbs lighter... (not yet) but each day I experience Instant Results as I achieve my daily goals and as I work towards my over all weight goal and over time I will see even bigger results to where I wont look back on my life and wish I had started a year from now...because I started today... and I'll start again tomorrow and the next day and so on. 

Weight loss is hard....but it is totally worth every second of the pain, sweat and tears that go into it. DON'T GIVE UP! Take the time to change now so that in a year you will be where you want to be and not looking back on your life wishing you would have changed then.  

Until next time,

SpazOut, 

Shay 

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